Chocoerin’s poems for suckers of love…

My self destruction is imminent, either i destroy myself or everything around me…

Destruction breeds many goods things, and i am paving that path, to destruction and everything it creates…

In death there is life…

I’ve always looked so strong outside this shell,

Because problems rarely enter my home,

I’m not used to being in my own hell,

But am always ready to bear my tomb…

That is my weakness, my vengeful dear soul,

It hangs on the balance of love and hate,

Never reaching any one of its goals,

So fragile that threats it eliminates…

It burrows if it can’t face enemies,

It rots from within, tainting my conscience,

Ever lingering under alibis,

Hell bent on its desires of red vengeance…

Only a matter of time that i burn,

Crashing my life down my own hell and urn…

And now, i think of her… (she is the collection of girls that i adore, the very imaginary perfection of my perverted, cruel and twisted fantasies)

My twisted unclean one…

She is all i wanted and have for now,

The future is never a certain thing,

She is not the forever that i know,

She adapts to my melody’s liking.

She burns down my very early morning,

Like the cold caffeinated cobra drink,

Rejuvinating sting keeps me pumping,

Pulling me close, and closer down the brink.

That century tuna keeps me healthy,

Like her, who is good for this heart of sin,

Addictive satisfying lustfully,

She’s my drug, my all, my nymphetamine.

I can’t help it, but to crave for her touch,

Withering, tainting, unpure love of mine.

Our love broke our bonds for the reason that “it’s just too much” before it turned into hatred.

Everything is just like that.  The terrible circumstances always cover that.  It’s the reality of the powerful.

Embracing a distorted dilemma… Without noticing, even the two who have pledged are being separated far away.

Even my shattered heart is deserted as if it were something normal.  I won’t accept this and stand up without escaping the image of my ruin.

Ah, i’ll search for your eyes and the warmth of your hand no matter how long it takes.

You murmured that love always hurt you.  You were crying, afraid of finding the truth.

You learned what it meant to be weak, and without fearing and believing, you will learn what true love is.

What made me think

“How can you say that with a straight face?”

When you ask, “When will we meet again?”

Any time you talk too much, i know you don’t get it.

For a moment, i see your bluff and i cry.

Do my tears even work on you?

I keep on saying, “I want to be loved”

In my own special way, but you still don’t get the hint.

I have this nagging feeling, that i’ll never see you again.

I wish i can tell you, but i can’t find the words.

Maybe i’d rather listen to you lie, I can’t even say “Don’t leave me”

When you let go of my hand, will you forget about me?

I wish i can tell you, but i can’t find the words.

Maybe i’d rather listen to you lie, I can’t even say “Don’t leave me”

In a world full of lies and deception,
When the world plunges into depression,
One can only ask for an exception,
When will its people find its sedation?

Someone who can show a symbol of hope,
That binds love not just by a single rope,
To inspire in the hearts of apathy,
I’ll stand up to fight when you call on me,

It is true that i trail uncertainty,
Wakes of confusion always surrounds me,
That’s because no one trusted me like you,
Trusted a stranger which you had no clue,

Trust me that i will change once and for all,
Trust me to catch you whenever you fall.

One always thought that one can fool himself,
That one can say one don’t love anymore,
One always thought that one’s invincible,
That one can say one don’t fear anymore.

One convinced himself many delusions,
Because one doesn’t want to take the risk,
One convinced himself to fear rejections,
Because one feared, he never finished it.

One have always loved from the beginning,
A fairytale where first love never dies,
One have always loved until the present,
A fairytale he can’t even call lies.

I am the one, it has always been you,
It started with you, wish it ends with you.

lost in translation to everyday work,
so confused on realizing one’s own,
how we ignore, left empty with a fork,
the self contradicts with what is inborn,

others see us to be one with success,
someone who can buy bliss in moment’s grasp,
reflections in the mirror says we’re less,
excruciating pain in swarms of wasp,

hunger of self deliverance is due,
we close our eyes and dwell on ignorance,
we act like robots for a good God’s view,
hiding the stench with pleasant fragrance,

never bother to draw the line of though,
our tragedy in sanity’s eclipse,

i’ve been hurt like you’ll never ever know,
heartaches again and again but it shows,
i hide behind a masks of my pretends,
pretending to be strong as my heart mends…

i have smiled like there is no tomorrow,
i’ve always used it to hide my sorrows,
a sadness that made me numb and bitter,
i will hide no more and  be the bearer…

i have always felt this love growing strong,
and so i can’t evade from it for long,
i want you to be with me in my dreams,
let me grow with you whatever the theme…

i am and will wait for you as always,
as long as i have breathe to draw a way…

the sun starts to shine but rain is dripping,
am soaking wet under the rainbow sky,
i look at you while you are sleeping,
my mind’s constant thoughts of you cannot lie,

the probabilities of you and me,
are like this dark and sunny, cold holidays,
the more i twist and turn the boundary,
i entangle myself to loops all day,

vague and misunderstood is what we are,
constant changing reflections of the gene,
chemically induced hard disks by far,
to embrace freedom and what does it mean,

does she notice what i write for her,
does she even know before, now, later,

I wish i can grasp her beauty to show,
paint her picture in, to last forever,
a face that has none a scar, scratch or flaw,
a luscious body that none can better,

She is not your average girl next door,
she is immortal, unaging with time,
she’s a goddess of love, beauty and more,
she is more or less, making me sublime,

Ebony silks flows thru her blue mantle,
dimpled smile and her eyes of seer wisdom,
eye catching figure of a coke bottle,
and a perfectly tanned color that comes,

What more can one asks for a woman,
if she has all that is what starves a man,