Chocoerin’s poems for suckers of love…

I put my self to believe she’s like me,
that she’s everything that i wish for,
the only thing that makes reality,
the undeluded girl that i adore,

I’ve had intellectual orgasms to dear,
ones that beat the physical out of it,
such luscious knowledge i can’t even hear,
soothing whispers fastens me to my seat,

The wind blows gentle in the world we have,
so real, exiting, waiting to be known,
so is this thing that we both share called love,
the rainbow colored feeling we have grown,

we have a life driven by our reason,
and our essence and our life is just won,

here i go again on a speech i can’t even finish,
this words of "i love you"s are coming out of my shell,
i cross my pincers wishing myself luck,
no i’m not making all of this up,

i can’t keep it anymore i’ll burst my sanity,
i love you and i mean it,
from the very first time i set my eyes on you,
yes a long road coming back to first year high,

i loved you for all these years,
seven silent years of disarray,
i was completely shattered when you first had a boyfriend,
that i can’t help it and loss control of myself,

even now i find myself restless,
i carved a ruined path,
too many collateral damage,
yes all is fair in love and war,

i don’t even know now how i’ll start,
we are good friends and i can’t risk that,
i can’t be too selfish right?
or is it worth risking it for i may not have a next time,

i thought myself to patiently wait,
i can see at the guys you had that they are not for you,
but i can’t tell you deserve much better than that,
because i don’t have anything but a promise of love,

i myself am starting again,
i’m full of faults as you can see but there’s a lot more,
but my heart sprang out of the patience and its shell,
the moment it knew opportunity,

i want to tell you all of this after i graduate,
but i must grab this opportunity now right?
you may misunderstand me at this point,
but i’ll stand up tall to any statements presented,

no its not because you are a model now,
not because of your fancy things,
not because your a nursing student,
there’s only one word to testify to all this,

people call it love but i don’t even know it really,
all i know is i have this feeling that i can’t explain,
but keeps me coming back to you,
this is it my dear why i’m getting cranky inside,

i love you very much,
and i have no reasons for it,
i’ve been longing for you all this time,
all i have is my love for you.

Trying to touch that which we could not see
And that which we didn’t know hurt more than we could have known
I just wanted to cry and get the hell out of there
But that’s how i am so don’t think you’re the only one

There is no such thing as a worthless effort
or a pointless encounter so just put up your fists

No matter how far i reach out i can’t reach that flower
But if we hold hands we’ll grab it in a second
we keep missing each other and have misunderstandings
And we argue with one another in order to build our trust

Even if i’m drenched in tears after you hurt me today
Let’s keep on moving on the future together

Even when we graduate and get old
You’ll still be you and i’ll still be me
The sky above us will continue forever
and their’ll be nothing to stand in our way

There’s no such thing as a wasted effort
or a pointless encounter so just put up your fists
Whatever i’m lacking you’ll give to me
And whatever you’re missing i’ll make you complete

Are the flowers blooming on the road ahead?
When a path twist and turns this much,
Its normal to get lost, isn’t it?

My body and soul are trembling… I’m so nervous…

I won’t cry, i can do this! i’m not scared!
I told myself that a million times,
I won’t cry, i can do this! i’m not scared,
If i’m not aggressive, i know i’ll break down.

The rain feeds the flowers in my heart,
Even if i can’t see where it leads, i’ll keep walking this road,
No one is truly alone, we’ve all got someone to support us,

I won’t lose, i won’t falter, there’s nothing i can’t do!
I told myself that a million times,
I won’t lose, i won’t falter, there’s nothing i can’t do!
If i’m not aggressive, i know i’ll breakdown

I wish this nervous feeling… would dissappear…

I won’t cry, i’m can do this! i’m not scared!
I’ve told myself that a million times,
I won’t lose, i won’t falter, there’s nothing i can’t do!
I swear, i’ll endure it all.

Just as usual, when i turned around that corner,
I merge into the sea of people and melt away into nothing,
I lose myself completely and can find no words to say,
Yet, one thing, your voice still remains, still remains,

Everything about you, your smile, your anger,
It keeps me walking forward,
If i just look up, where the clouds start to break,
I think you know what i mean, I think you know what i mean,

The rain is starting to fall, and i’m tired running,
Because i was chasing after the rabbit i couldn’t catch up to,
Your eyes are breathing in the water of the transparent deep dark ocean floor,
Call me, I’m right here.  Where should i go, to get satisfied?

Lets go home. Tomorrow, will i be fine and be smiling?
Call my name, i will embrace you.
Close your eyes and remember when you were little,

You filled in the areas that needed more,
I was able to forget sad feelings right away, so i’m not afraid,
I tell lies and regret them, I suddenly became an adult,
Become embarassed and have sweat run down,

Even so, there’s a reason to continue dancing,
Burn the soul, it’s yelling,
If you open up and go, you will be saved,

Let’s go home white rabbit,
Let’s meet at the other side of the moon,
Let’s go home. Tomorrow, you’ll be smiling on your barefoot,
Call me, i will embrace you,
Close your eyes and remember when you were little,

The rain is starting to fall and i’m tired of running,
Because i was chasing after the rabbit i couldn’t catch up to,
Your eyes are breathing in the water of the transparent deep dark ocean floor,
Call me, I’m right here.  If you say, say to your heart, you will be satisfied,

Poem by ChocoErin

we ran onto separate roads,
i see your star fly high,
i look up as i carry my loads,
i realize we have the same sky.

i’m happy for the changes in you,
how gorgeous you get with each day,
i hope i can still catch up with you,
somethings would just stay.

i would do my best,
i’ll wager all on destiny,
what’s life without its fullest,
we strive to be happy.

moments lasting lifetimes,
keep safe in our sanctuary.

Copyright:May 31, 2007

lost poem…to kristel…the lioness…

a poem made back in high school…

never had the courage to give her though…

never had and never will…

At first glance they may ask if you’re an angel,

Then howling approvals in there kennels,

It is more than a privilege looking at you,

You can dazzle everyone without a clue,

You are the girl everybody will see,

In that crowd they’ll turn out to thee,

Spot lighted by the rays of the sun,

Proudly walking, with pride and a fan,

Heads turn when you smoothly glide by,

You’re like a princess in everyone’s eye,

Elegantly dressed in a neat, fine silk,

Shining like the sun at the highest peak,

It’s such a wonder how you came up,

You’re a lioness, everyone should look up.

To see you is a time to reminisce,

The days of youth which i really miss,

A youth full of a love and bliss,

Innocent yet sincere intentions,

Immature or dumb contemplations,

Love have chosen no explanations,

Chances are grasps hardly,
Dreams of becoming you and me,

Will this ever be reality,

First love had always lived forever,

And again it dies never,

Hope we shared it together…

She blew me like those flowers on her hand,

With her last flying kiss landing on me,

Her voice is all i need to understand,

Understanding which that can never be,

Now i lay waste to a life that is torn,

Next to the one game she always play,

There to a kingdom where hearts are reborn,

There, where my life, my heart and my soul lay,

to be continued…